Wow

Are you fucking serious? Everytime I do something for you, it seems like it's no big deal huh? Lately you haven't been doing anything nice for me. Put yourself in my shoes and how would you feel? I've been asking for one little thing the whole time but no you can never do it just to make me happy. And look at all the stuff I have done for you. You don't appreciate so why should I keep doing it? I'm stopping because you take me for granted and I don't like that. I've told you many times but no you don't see it. You have been ignoring me lately and what the fuck is going on? Too busy for me? I don't need any of your excuses anymore. Either act right or I'm not going to give my all anymore. Easy to fucking understand?

Mangoes are green!

My day started off when I was on the phone at 5AM and I was talking to Kim Dang. We got crazy at each other and she went to sleep. I stayed up because I needed to call Kim at 7AM to wake her up! So I stayed up playing FreeCell and listening to Nevershoutnever - Trouble. I called Kim at 6:52AM and she was like "8 moreeeee minutesss", and I was like okay. I called her back and she was getting ready and she made me sleep. After I woke up I started to do my laundry! While my clothes was washing I went to Autozone to see if they could clean my battery because I asked them before and they said yeah. I came in and another worker was like no we don't do this but he gave me some tools that could help. I cleaned my car battery and then I went to dry my clothes! After doing laundy I was just chilling at home and did nothing to the whole day. I miss Kim Dang like crazy! I'm such a psycho without her. After that I went to wash one of my dogs, Sausage. She had like crazy red bumps on her. Later in the day my mom came home and she made me wash cars with her! I was like are you serious?! It was freezing cold, and my mom and I washed 2 cars. That was pretty much how my day went.

<3

Hello! So my day started off with me visiting my dad with Bao because I'm not 18 =(. After that I went to Goldenwest Park also known as "Fryberger Park". I went to Carl's Jr. aftewards because I was starving and brought the food to Phi's house to eat and then chilled for a bit. After some time I went to Wal-mart to buy my 6 pack of rootbeer and there's a bunch of homeless people around there now so I was being generous and gave a couple dollars away. People in the store walked so slow, they need to learn how to move faster! So I went to Murphy's house and chilled for a bit, it was boring so I left. I came home and was talking to Kim on the phone and then my mom told me to go with her to my grandma's house. I thought it was a good idea to drop off my computer at my grandma's house because my uncle there would reformat it for me. I went home and talked to Kim Dang on the phone and it was good. And then I started to listen to my myspace song, Dawn Richard - Falls Away and it got me thinking about stuff. I think a lot haha! But yeah, she talks about in the song about not saying the things she wanted to say for someone and then she confesses it. That's one of the reason why I always say what I need to say to Kim Dang. I want her to know how much she means to me if something ever happens to me. I might be over dramatic but things do happen. And if something I say makes her want to stay with my forever and I'll constantly say it for her. I want her to know that it makes no difference if I'm going to be at a different school from her, I'm always going to love her. I'm never going to leave her so she shouldn't be thinking about negative things like that. She's all I need. It could be of the end of the world today, but as long as you're close to me then nothing matters except us. I love you with all my heart and I will continue loving you and giving you all I can to make you happy and mines. I only want you. You're my bestfriend, better-half, girlfriend, lover, and MY ONLY ONE. I hope you remember that every day because I always remind you and it should be implanted in your brain =).

Pepsi

So after I got my car back in the afternoon, I had to refill it with gas because my stupid brother always uses my car and wastes the gas. I went to Chevron to get gas and it's embarrassing because I didn't know how to use the pump there! I had to ask for help from the worker haha! So I went home and chilled until 6:30PM and then went over to Murphy's house to meet up and go eat Hometown Buffet. i drove everyone there and then we ate lots and lots of food! I've never been so full. We decided to go to the Four Star Cinema and watch Transformers 2. Second time watching it for me and it was okay. The worst part was there wasn't enough seats for everyone and the light was on where we were sitting the whole time. The movie ended and we went back to Murphy's house and kicked it for a bit. I went home and tried calling Kim Dang but she didn't pick up, boo hooo. She called me back at 12:03AM though, and she played this rating game with me. After that she asked me a question, "What would happen if I died?" or something along that line. The question actually threw me off because I don't usually think that way. But the truth is, if that ever happened, I would be devastated. I don't even think I could eat or go out or anything. I would lay in bed always thinking to myself, I could have made the times I was with her better. I've always been the mad type and that kills the moment sometimes. I would regret that so much and I would beat myself over it. Truth is, I want to change for her because if anything ever happened, I know I wouldn't be wasting any time that I have with her. But in reality, I know I'm going to get angry about something little and it'll mess things up. I don't want that to happen but I know it will and I'm going to work on that. I never want to take Kim Dang for granted. She's the best thing to have ever happened to me and I know what I have is great and I'm never going to leave her. There's always room to change and that is what I'm trying to do. I don't want to be a bad boyfriend anymore, I want to give her all the love I can just to make her happy because I have to make everyday count. We've been together for 6 months now and we're going to last forever. I know she's the one because she's the only person to ever make me feel this way. She actually got me use to talking about my feelings, something which I never ever did before. I feel so comfortable around her and she knows everything about me. She understands me better than anyone else. Things have gotten us angry at each other before but we always worked it out before. Our relationship has gotten so strong, that nothing can come between us. I LOVE KIM DANG!!

Yesterday and Today!

So yesterday was one of the best days ever! I finally hung out with Kim Dang and like I was super happy! We went to the park and then we went to go watch the movie I Love You Beth Cooper. The movie was so funny! After the movie, Kim had to go home which made me sad, noo! So I went home and did nothing until I went to the mall and bought Kim a shirt! I saw Alissa working so I visited her and met two other people. I dropped her off and went home and did nothing for the rest of the day until the night when I went with my mom to go buy food!

Today is me and Kim's 6 month anniversary! We are together for so long! And nobody thought we would last this long, IN THEIR FACE!!!! Too bad I can't hang out with her though, I miss her like crazy. I did however bought her Hot Lays and dropped it off at her house along with her shirt. I'm such a ninja. I'm back home now and I don't have my car because my brother took it since he has no car. I'm stuck with an Acura for now but it's all good, I'm not going anywhere anytime soon. So anyways, I'll blog more later, if i do something. Hehe.

Zeow

So today when I was up in Pomona with Thi and Phi we just kicked it and decided to go to Dien's house in Corona. When we were about to leave the van didn't start haha! So we just let it cool down and then it worked later. Did nothing at Diens house except I ate a cinnabon and watched Knowing. Knowing was so stupid! The first half was good and then it got all religious and what not. I decided to go home when Thi went home but we chilled at his family's party first. Everybody thought I was his brother at first haha. Anyways, I just ate some barbeque and met a priest! Then we headed back to Thi's house and I went home. On the phone with Kim now and she's pretty quiet. She told me I make her feel bad but if you just look at reality, I've been giving you all you need but you've been being mean to me so when I point it out, it suddenly makes you look bad. DON'T take me for granted. Treat me the way I treat you and everything will be good. I love you a lot and I don't want to fight with you or anything, but is it too hard just to love me?

gooodmorning! :)

HellO! This morning has been good! Everything seems to be going my way now and I couldn't ask for more. I love my girlfriend soooo much! So yesterday I basically did nothing except kicked it with my mom at night. Went to Walmart and they had so much colorful things that I wanted to buy, but then I know that I would be wasting money. I'm not very good with money! I always buy random things. Anyways, I'm just chilling at home right now and today is Popeye Tuesday also! I might go to Pomona later, but we'll see right? I can't wait for tomorrow because I get to see Kim Dang!! I'm antsy pantsy! Well this is how my morning is going, or should I say afternoon? Haha!

<3

You know what ticks me off the most? When you give your all for someone. When you give 100% hoping you'll receive it in return but end up getting hurt. How can one person say they're in love and not give their all.. I don't understand?! I am giving my all and still continue giving my all but I get neglected and I'm not appreciated. I am being taking for granted and don't understand why. It hurts and irritates me to the point where I actually do cry. So much for being a man..I have love you constanly, always willing to give you more. I put you ahead of me expecting you would put me ahead of you. But no, I don't get the best of you. I WANT THE BEST OF YOU. Is that so hard to ask for? What did I do to deserve this? I deserve your best and all. You see that it hurts me and you said you changed but you still say you're learning to not take me for granted. Maybe I'm just too needy? But I think I do deserve the best of you. I understand that you're new to this and you're slowly opening up but you say you're in LOVE with me. Do you know what that means? Love is a powerful emotion you feel about something or someone. So why do I feel like I'm not appreciated? It's so easy to make me happy. Calling me at random times just to say I love you. Just a hint that tells me you want me. I honestly want to be with you and I love you so much and I just hope that you're willing to open up, to make me happy.